whenever there is someone we care about.. when our loved ones are in need.. we cnt help but to reach out.. make things all better 4 that person.. If its possible, we wana protect the person as much we can.. If we hav e authority 2 imprison them, juz 2 b sure dat they wil b fine, we'd hav done so.. (ok, mebbe only im dat psychotic as to jail my loved 1s :P) but my point is, we cnt help caring for our family n friends, especially those dat r dear to us..

Dats al fine n dandy but problems arise when our emotional investment gets overboard n we realize dat others dun giv bac as muc as we do them.. we get cnfused n hurt, curling up on our beds crying our hearts out, thinkg people dun luv us n dey dun appreciate us.. I used 2 feel e same way, esp in high sch wen al we wantd was 2 b THE MOST POPULAR, MOST AMIABLE GAL in sch.. (oh dun hav 2 point fingers, we noe ourselves ;) ) So I was naive, overly helpful n in turn, 'taken adv of'... So I startd 2 get mad n angry.. thinkg ppl r inconsiderate n hateful.. u noe, e normal teenage rage dat we used 2 xperience.. den e most dreadful cnclusion came 2 my head: If ppl dun cre abt me, y shd i cre abt them?? hel wif them! from now on, I shall do things 4 me n me alone..!" *in a high pitch bimbotic shriekg voice.. :P
blive me, during dat tym, It sounded lyk e wisest decision i hav mde n i was highly proud of myself.. 4rm a dwn-2-earth gal 2 a snobbish pain-in-e-freakshow.. I evn went 2 e xtend of leavg my frens! juz 2 prove my point.. ridiculous isnt it??

same goes wen we r in a relationship.. we put all our emotional 'investment' on dat 1 person, trustg dat 1 person 2 protect n cre 4 us as we do them.. but wen it is not reciprocated, we get mad n angry.. confused n betrayed.. start cursing all guys as losers n bcomes e leader of a feminist grp e nxt day..

here is e thing.. wen we wana help, we cant expect 2 get anything bac.. Its called 'giving' 4 a reason.. Its not an investment wher u give ur time n effort, n expect a return.. its a charity, wher u 'give', then fyl gd dat u actuali took e initiative 2 mke things bettr 4 others... dat way, u wont hav 2 get angry abt others, cos u hav always kip in mind, dat at e end of e day: Its still btween u n God..

ok lovely ppl! i'l b back on tues morning n i'l c u den! Gd luck wif life! ;)

2 - the Helper

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Helpers are warm, concerned, nurturing,

and sensitive to other people's needs.

 

 

 

 

How to Get Along with Me

• Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.

• Share fun times with me.

• Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus on yours.

• Let me know that I am important and special to you.

• Be gentle if you decide to criticize me.

 

In Intimate Relationships

• Reassure me that I am interesting to you.

• Reassure me often that you love me.

• Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me.

 

What I Like About Being aTWO

• being able to relate easily to people and to make friends

• knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better

• being generous, caring, and warm

• being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings

• being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humor

 

What's Hard About Being a TWO

• not being able to say no

• having low self-esteem

• feeling drained from overdoing for others

• not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish

• criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should

• being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tume in to them

• working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings

 

TWOs as Children Often

• are very sensitive to disapproval and criticism

• try hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding

• are outwardly compliant

• are popular or try to be popular with other children

• act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention

• are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted TWOs), or quiet and shy (the more introverted TWOs)

 

TWOs as Parents

• are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren't)

• are often playful with their children

• wonder: "Am I doing it right?" "Am I giving enough?" "Have I caused irreparable damage?"

• can become fiercely protective

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele, The Enneagram Made Easy. Discover the 9 Types of People.

Harper: San Francisco, 1994, 161 pages

 

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we nid sm1 2 cnstantly rmind us dat we r needed...
we r important...
dat life matters...
without these ppl ard...
its like we r falling 4rm a never-ending stairway...
plop plop plop plop plop plop plop plop plop..................
it goes on n on n on n on n on n on..........
n it doesnt stop until sm1 catches us...

or we learn 2 climb up by ourselves...
stop hoping for others 2 help us..
n help ourselves..
yes! u pathetic creature!
wake up n smell e roses!
juz b, juz do!

Im really in no mood 2 study 2day..
i hav microbe ppr 2moro,
n i haven covered al e topics..
but my brain s a mess,
my rm is a mess,
my life is a mess...
im surrounded by messy things!
Im messy!!!
ma life is in nid of an xtreme mkeover!!

reali, 2day is juz me rambling..
since i dun wana study..
n e vids on utube r gettg mre n mre boring..
my farm is not growing a thing..
used up my energy in sorority life..
soo bored dat I went 2 e extend of playing mindsweeper!
whic by e way, i m an xpert at.. *wink2.. ;)

wat u wana noe?
u wana noe if im ok??
wat if i say m not??
watcha gona do abt dat huh?? huh huh??
hahaha..

e thing is, i ws feelg rather gr8 dis morning..
I felt free.. liberated... joyful! hehe..
then as e day goes by...
I find my synapses sendg incmprehensible signals 2 al parts of my brain..
or mebbe my brain hs collapsed, is dat possible?? 2 hav a collapsed brain??
mebbe if we scan it, we mite c e cerebellum at e front.. or e thalamus at e rite side of my skul..
or mebbe it hs xpanded like e 1 in an autistic child..
so im autistic?? spastic?? or psychotic??
i noe, im rambling..

Crap! exam s tomorrow!!
gtg!!

We r supposed 2 b happy 2 c luv btwn 2 ppl...

So Im happy dat u r happy.. :)
(u hav no idea hw muc effort it tkes 2 get 2 dis cnclusn..) :P

Bdays mke u realize hw muc time u've spent on Earth
and how little u've accomplished.................................

Bila nak matang??

Trying 2 eliminate drama in my life..

no mre:

- Complaining.. e hardest part of this process.. :P

- no mre being frenly, esp 2 boys.. MINGLING IS HARAM... :P
this grp of e species really dun understand english, or malay, or singlish...or Malish??
but im not sre how 2 do dis 1... hmm..
klu dlu at Alj it ws easy, + e boys der wre atleast tolerable n decent..
din noe I cn b so wrong abt sme ppl..

- Aimless activities.. like go out waste $$,..
rmember Samirah, u r NOT rich, so dun pretend 2 b 1..
understand??

- Being irresponsible wif studies..
ni lag 1.. pls eh gal, u r not supposed 2 regress..
dats juz unacceptable..!

- having, u noe, dat person, u noe e person, dat, u noe, on my mind.. :P
hmm.. how? extract my brain out??
hmm... May u b happy alwayz my dearrr...

Orite, i nid u 2 wish me luck... so wish me luck! ;)
Do pray 4 me,
I nid ur prayers n support as muc as I nid His strenght n guidance..

Salam to my fam n frens,

we all know that
كاد الفقر أن يكون كفر

when we live in poverty,
we tend to think of easy ways to get what we want..
we succumb to stealing, cheating, bwitching.. ;)

Let's juz hope we dun have to be tested in this way..

however, most of us are Alhamdulillah,
gifted with wealth and good health..
but have we ever stop and consider,
aren't all these gifts in a way a test for us as well??
How many of us make good use of the things given to us??
How many of us feel grateful for each little reward given??

My dad bought me my pc,
look what I do with it..
instead of watching useful constructive vids,
I upload music vids and irrelevant drama series that serves no value in life..
and 70% of the time I'm logged on to fb playing games..
n having useless conversations on nothing in particular..

My money... my spare time... my friends...
one day we will be asked on these things..
How did we make use of them??
Do we use them for good??
Or are these gifts more inclined towards useless worldly materials that serves no purpose for our future - our hereafter??

these 'gifts' are not merely to make us grateful to our Lord,
Not only when we have less, we stray..
but we also need to bear in mind,
The more we have,
the more obligation we hold on each gift we receive..

A reminder for me before others..

All e best..

"That's what the Prophet's Companions did in their yearly lives..
Ramadan as the middle..
6 months pre-Ramadan is to get prepared for the coming of Ramadan.
6 months post-Ramadan is to do the checking how well have they done for the last Ramadan.."
- Abg Adli...

Remember that?
Now apply it.

Sme of em sound ttly angry..
shd hav used my head b4 doing things..
God i fyl cheap..

wel these r xperiences
nxt tym shall consult others1st..

hope I dun set sme new stupid trend..

u wldnt care..
Evn if i perish 4rm e face of e earth, u wldnt cre..
I think if i cut myself open in front of u,
i'l c ur curvy smile, amused at e pleasure..

I chose 2 walk away..
din noe choice wasnt an option..
din noe i'l b stuck in my pupae dis long..
din noe 1 look 4rm u is al it tkes 2 lose my ground..

Lord I beg u,
Bring my beautiful being back to me...